Faith

It Was Meant To Be.

Two days ago  i celebrated my birthday!!! I had initially planned to post something on the day but i ended up being away from my laptop  for most of the day but anyway here i am. It was a really nice chilled quiet day at home doing absolutely nothing which is exactly what i wanted. The older i get the more my birthday becomes about quality time not about who wished me happy birthday and who didn’t. The day was exactly what i wanted.

It was a day to reflect on the previous year and life in general. I spent most of the day being so thankful and grateful for my twin brother and the amazing close relationship we have. For those that don’t know i have a twin brother .

There was a time in my life i could not understand why i was born with a disability and he wasn’t yet we were in the womb at the same time. I really struggled to deal with this. I honestly don’t know where this came from. Growing up my parents treated us equally so there was never any reason for me to feel this way but i still did. I guess i was young and immature. I was still in high school so that could be the reason. It is only after i moved to Australia for university that for the first time in my life i really started to appreciate my siblings because i was now away from my parents who had previously done everything for me and now i had to rely on my siblings; it is during that season i truly saw the significance of having a twin brother and an older sister. Before then i just looked at them as my siblings nothing special about having a sister or a brother. I never did quite get the full picture of why i had an older sister and a twin brother. By God giving me an older sister and a twin brother, He ensured that i would have helpers all my life. If i had been the first born, who would look after me?

Jeremiah 1:5  “Before i formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as prophet to the nations.” Man how amazing is God though? He thoroughly thought about me before i was born. He thoroughly thought about how i was to be born with spina befida and my twin brother was not to be. He thoroughly planned it all before i entered into this world. At the time when i was questioning why my brother was not born with a disability, i could not see the big picture. All i could see was the gross injustice that life had dealt me, well at the time that’s how i thought. Isn’t it funny how we always question things in our lives but never take a moment to consider the bigger picture? Like what is the bigger picture here? What has God planned for me in all this mess? Where is this storm taking me? Surely this is not it, there has to be a bigger picture to this.

If we ever question God it should be based on us asking Him to open our eyes to see the bigger picture in all that we go through. God has a purpose for both the good and bad in our lives.

Ebenezer (1)

As i look back over my life, i see that my life was meant to be and God has been FAITHFUL in every season every step of the way. This year i vow to myself to be more grateful and thankful for my disability. So here’s to many more years of awesomeness and God’s unconditional faithful love towards me.

As I look back over my life
I can see how Your love has guided me
Even though I’ve done wrong
You never left me alone
But You forgave me
And You kept on blessing
This I recall to my mind
Therefore I have hope
It’s because of Your mercy that we are not consumed
Because thy compassions fail not,
They are new every morning
Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulnessAs I look back over my life
I can see how Your love has guided me
Even though I’ve done wrong
You never left me alone
But You forgave me
And You kept on blessing
This I recall to my mind
Therefore I have hope
It’s because of Your mercy that we are not consumed
Because thy compassions fail not,
They are new every morning
Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulnessYou’ve been, Lord You’ve been so faithful
(Even though sometimes I didn’t do what You wanted me to do)
You’ve been, Lord You’ve been so faithful
(Even though sometimes I didn’t say what You wanted me to say)I can never repay You Lord for what You done for me
How You loosed my shackles and you set me free.
How You made a way out of no way
Turned my darkness into day
You’ve been my joy in the time of sorrow
Hope for my tomorrow
Peace in the time of storm
Strength when I’m weak and worn

You’ve been, Lord You’ve been so faithful
(Even though sometimes I didn’t do what You wanted me to do)
You’ve been, Lord You’ve been so faithful
(Even though sometimes I didn’t say what You wanted me to say)
You’ve been

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