I’ve been feeling tired lately not physical fatigue but rather emotional exhaustion. Upon close inspection i have been on auto pilot for a few weeks now, where i just get up, show up and do what i need to do . Some days i enjoy what I’m enjoying whilst other days I’m just crying for a break, just one week at home with absolutely nothing to do about would do me good right about now. I’ve comforted myself saying it’s the end of the year-that’s how it feels in November so it’s OK! I currently have a tonne of things to do between uni assignments, attending uni classes, placement, case notes, research for clients, clinical supervision, church, i barely have little time to do anything else. Lately it just feels like my mind is constantly racing and never resting cause I’m always thinking once i finish this, i have to do this and that. When i woke up today i did not want to go to church, i was running late and thought to myself let me contact my team leaders and tell them i can’t make it but thought that’s not right let me go to church. As i arrived at the train station i noticed that my train had been cancelled and thought yes perfect excuse not to go to church today. I was certain there was some delay on the train line and at that time i wanted to take the bus back home but nonetheless i waited for the train and off to church i went. I am so GLAD i did cause the message was so for me and a timely word, just what the doctor ordered. What really stood out to be was when the pastor shared about how it is ok to be empty, how it is ok to have nothing else left to give but it shouldn’t end there but rather take that nothing and place it at the throne of God and be honest with Him that you are empty and have nothing left to give. And i was like WOW yes AMEN AMEN AMEN!!!!!!! She ended off the sermon with one of my favourite verses Isaiah 40:29-31.
Isaiah 40:29-31 AMP
He gives power to the faint and weary, and to him who has no might He increases strength [causing it to multiply and making it to abound].
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and [selected] young men shall feebly stumble and fall exhausted;
But those who wait for the Lord [who expect, look for, and hope in Him] shall change and renew their strength and power; they shall lift their wings and mount up [close to God] as eagles [mount up to the sun]; they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint or become tired.
This was such a timely reminder for me that it’s ok to feel tired and even exhausted at times, how else will my strength be increased, how else will my strength be renewed, how else will i mount up on wings like eagles unless i feel tired, unless i am empty, unless i have nothing else to offer HIM. It really is OK to feel tired BUT it should not end there in you acknowledging that you are tired, you should take it to God so that He can increase your strength, so that He can renew your strength. What a wonderful reminder that God gives us strength when we feel tired!!!